第81章

  says delly. "it's so nice to see you out...and about."
  two large guards stand behind him. he holds his tray awkwardly, balanced on his fingertips since his wrists are shackled with a short chain between them.
  "what's with the fancy bracelets?" asks johanna.
  "i'm not quite trustworthy yet," says peeta. "i can't even sit here without your permission." he indicates the guards with his head.
  "sure he can sit here. we're old friends," says johanna, patting the space beside her. the guards nod and peeta takes a seat. "peeta and i had adjoining cells in the capitol. we're very familiar with each other's screams."
  annie, who's on johanna's other side, does that thing where she covers her ears and exits reality. finnick shoots johanna an angry look as his arm encircles annie.
  "what? my head doctor says i'm not supposed to censor my thoughts. it's part of my therapy," replies johanna.
  the life has gone out of our little party. finnick murmurs things to annie until she slowly removes her hands. then there's a long silence while people pretend to eat.
  "annie," says delly brightly, "did you know it was peeta who decorated your wedding cake? back home, his family ran the bakery and he did all the icing."
  annie cautiously looks across johanna. "thank you, peeta. it was beautiful."
  "my pleasure, annie," says peeta, and i hear that old note of gentleness in his voice that i thought was gone forever. not that it's directed at me. but still.
  "if we're going to fit in that walk, we better go," finnick tells her. he arranges both of their trays so he can carry them in one hand while holding tightly to her with the other. "good seeing you, peeta."
  "you be nice to her, finnick. or i might try and take her away from you." it could be a joke, if the tone wasn't so cold. everything it conveys is wrong. the open distrust of finnick, the implication that peeta has his eye on annie, that annie could desert finnick, that i do not even exist.
  "oh, peeta," says finnick lightly. "don't make me sorry i restarted your heart." he leads annie away after giving me a concerned glance.
  when they're gone, delly says in a reproachful voice, "he did save your life, peeta. more than once."
  "for her." he gives me a brief nod. "for the rebellion. not for me. i don't owe him anything."
  i shouldn't rise to the bait, but i do. "maybe not. but mags is dead and you're still here. that should count for something."
  "yeah, a lot of things should count for something that don't seem to, katniss. i've got some memories i can't make sense of, and i don't think the capitol touched them. a lot of nights on the train, for instance," he says.
  again the implications. that more happened on the train than did. that what did happen--those nights i only kept my sanity because his arms were around me--no longer matters. everything a lie, everything a way of misusing him.
  peeta makes a little gesture with his spoon, connecting gale and me. "so, are you two officially a couple now, or are they still dragging out the star-crossed lover thing?"
  "still dragging," says johanna.
  spasms cause peeta's hands to tighten into fists, then splay out in a bizarre fashion. is it all he can do to keep them from my neck? i can feel the tension in gale's muscles next to me, fear an altercation. but gale simply says, "i wouldn't have believed it if i hadn't seen it myself."
  "what's that?"

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