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  ay,
  and not see me.
  here i was much easier to believe the absurdities that
  embarrassed me indoors. nothing had this forest for thousands
  of years, ahs and legends of a hundred different lands
  seemed much more likely ihan they had i
  bedroom.
  i forced myself to fo the two most vital questions i had to answer,
  but i did so unwillingly.
  first, i had to decide if it ossible that what jacob had said about
  the s could be true.
  immediately my mind respoh a resouive. it was silly
  and morbid to eain such ridiotions. but what, then? i asked
  myself. there was no ratioion for how i was alive at this
  moment. i listed agaihings i'd observed myself: the
  impossible speed ahe eye c from black to gold
  and ba, the ihe pale, frigid skin. and more —
  small things that registered slowly — how they o eat, the
  disturbih which they moved. and the way be
  sometimes spoke, with unfamiliar d phrases that better fit the
  style of a turury hat of a twenty-first-tury
  . he had skipped class the day we'd doyping. he hadn't
  said rip till he heard ere goio
  know what everyone around him was thi me. he had told me he
  was the villain, dangerous…
  could the s be vampires?
  well, they were somethiside the possibility of rational
  justifi lay incredulous eyes. whether
  it be jacob's y owheory, edward was
  not… human. he was something more.
  so the would have to be my answer for now.
  ahe most importaion of all. what was i going to do if it
  was true?
  if edire — i could hardly make myself think the words —
  then what should i do? involving someone else was defi. i
  't even believe myself; aold would have me itted.
  only two optioical. the first was to take his advice: to
  be smart, to avoid him as much as possible. to cel our plans, to go
  ba as far as i retend there was an
  impehick glass wall between us in the one class ere
  fether. to tell him to leave me alone — ahis time.
  i ed in a sudden agony of despair as i sidered that
  alternative. my mihe pain, quickly skipping o
  option.
  i othier all, if he was something… sinister,
  he'd dohing to hurt me so far. in fact, i would be a dent in
  tyler's fender if he hadn't acted so quickly. so quickly, i argued with
  myself, that it might have been sheer reflexes. but if it was a reflex to
  save lives, how bad could he be? i retorted. my head spun around in
  answerless circles.
  there was ohing i was sure of, if i was sure of anything. the dark
  edward i night was a refley fear of the
  word jacob had spoken, and not edward himself. even so, when i'd screamed
  out ihe werewolf's lu washe wolf that
  brought the y lips. it was fear that he would be harmed —
  eveo me -edged fangs, i feared for him.
  a i had my answer. i didn't know if there ever was a
  choice, really. i was already ihat i knew — if i knew —
  i othing ab secret. be i thought of
  him, of his voice, his hyphe magic force of his
  personality, i wahio be with him right now. even
  if… but i 't think it. not here, alohe darke
  while the rai dim as twilight uhe d pattered like
  footsteps aatted earthen floor. i shivered and rose quickly
  from my plae somehow the path would have
  disappeared with the rain.
  but it was there, safe and ding its way out
  green maze. i followed it hastily, my hood pulled y face,
  being surprised, as i nearly ran through the trees, at how far i had
  e. i started to wonder if i was heading out at all, or fo