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  .”
  she took my hand carefully ahrough the door into the living
  room of the hotel suite. i could hear a low buzz of voi
  the tv. jasper sat motiohe desk in the er, his eyes
  watg the h erest.
  i sat on the floor he coffee table, where a tray of food waited,
  and began pig at it without notig what i was eating.
  alice per of the sofa and stared blankly at the tv like
  jasper.
  i ate slowly, watg her, turning now ao glance quickly at
  jasper. it began to dawhey were too still. they never
  looked away from the sercials were playing now. i
  pushed the tray away, my stomach abruptly uneasy. alice looked down at me.
  ”what's wrong, alice?” i asked.
  ”nothing's wrong.” her eyes were wide, ho… and i didn't trust them.
  ”?”
  ”we wait for carlisle to call.”
  ”and should he have called by now?” i could see that i was he mark.
  alice's eyes flitted from mihe phoop of her leather bag and
  back.
  ”what does that mean?” my voice quavered, and i fought to trol it.
  ”that he hasn't called yet?”
  ”it just means that they don't have anything to tell us.”
  but her voice was too even, and the air was harder to breathe.
  jasper was suddenly beside alie than usual.
  ”bella,” he said in a suspiciously soothing voice. ”you have nothing to
  worry about. you are pletely safe here.”
  ”i know that.”
  ”then why are yhtened?” he asked, fused. he might feel the
  tenor of my emotions, but he 't read the reasohem.
  ”you heard what laurent said.” my voice er, but i was
  sure they could hear me. ”he said james was lethal. what if something
  g, aed? if somethio any of them,
  carlisle, emmett… edward…” i gulped. ”if that wild female hurts esme…” my
  voice had growe inni. ”how
  could i live with myself when it's my fault? none of you should be
  risking yourselves for me —”
  ”bella, bella, stop,” he ied me, his w out so quickly
  they were hard to uand. ”you're w about all the wrong
  thirust me on this — none of us are in jeopardy. you are
  uoo mu as it is; don't add to it with wholly unnecessary
  worries. listen to me!” he ordered, for i had looked away. ”our family is
  strong. our only fear is losing you.”
  ”but why should you —”
  aliterrupted this time, toug my cheek with her gers.
  ”it's been almost a tury that edward's been alone. now he's found you.
  you 't see the ges that ho have been with him for so
  long. do you think any of us want to look ihe
  hundred years if he loses you?”
  my guilt slowly subsided as i looked into her dark eyes. but, even as the
  calm spread over me, i knew i 't trust my feelings er
  there.
  it was a very long day.
  we stayed in the room. alice called dow desk ahem
  to ignore our maid servios stayed shut, the tv on,
  though ched it. at regular intervals, food was delivered for
  me. the silver ph on alice's bag seemed ter as the
  hours passed.
  my babysitters hahe suspehan i did. as i fidgeted and
  paced, they simply grew more still, two statues whose eyes followed me
  imperceptibly as i moved. i occupied myself with mem the room; the
  striped pattern of the cou, peach, cream, dull gold, and tan
  agaiimes i stared at the abstrats, randomly finding
  pi the shapes, like i'd fouhe clouds as a child.
  i traced a blue hand, a woman bing her hair, a cat stretg. but
  when the pale red circle became a staring eye, i looked away.
  as the afternoon wore oo bed, simply for something to do.
  i hoped that by myself in the dark, i could give ierrible fears
  that hovered on the edge of my ess, uo break throug